A Birthday Letter to My Dad

Dear Dad,
Tomorrow is your 74th Birthday. You passed away almost 3 months ago on Feb. 15th (the day after Valentine’s Day).

Since you’ve left this mortal life, our lives have not been remotely the same. I can’t even begin to tell you how deeply you are missed, thought of, talked about. Your stories are legendary. Your jokes retold. I think you would be so pleased and happy to know how much you have affected so many people throughout your life for the better. Everyone loves to tell me how much they love you, and everyone has a hilariously awesome story to tell me about you. It’s been a gift in someways to have this opportunity to focus on you and honor you, we’ve learned more about your life and we’ve loved you even more.

Each day, I have a moment when I pick up the phone to call you. I can hear your voice in my mind “Dee! My Dee!” answering the call. Then the reality sets in that we can’t have that conversation, that you are busy on the Lord’s errand in another place and I need to be patient and save up my news for the resurrection, or my own journey into heaven.

Dad, I want you to know (and I know that you do) how much I love you. I know that you and I had some rocky times years ago, but I assure you that every bit of that washed away and everything that remains is pure love and gratitude for everything you’ve given me. I just miss you. My heart aches to hear your voice.

On Sunday in our ward at church it was Mother’s Day. One of the speakers was talking about Mothers of course, but then he lovingly honored each of his daughters beaming proudly and exclaiming how truly proud he was to be their Dad. At that moment my tears flooded my face (the full on ugly cry) because it felt as though that was you up there saying those words to me. I know you were proud of me, and each of us kids. Your family were your riches, and you let us know it. It was hard on Sunday as I felt the flow of tears dripping down my cheeks, but then a flood of warmth filled my heart and I knew for just a moment you were there and came to let me know you loved me on Mother’s day.

Daddy, I don’t think I can ever get over this loss. It’s harder than I imagined losing a parent would feel. I always knew that it would be so painful, but the hole in my heart that remains is like on ongoing ache. I am doing all that I can to just keep moving, and to do so with grace and gratitude. I can feel better for a awhile but then the reality that I’m going to live the rest of this life without your hugs is unbearable. Nobody loves me like you do. So when you left it just has been so apparent how precious you are to me.

This experience makes me more and more thankful for our Savior Jesus Christ. That he performed the Atonement on behalf of all mankind because he loves us so much, and wants us to return to the presence of our Heavenly Father. It is armed with my deep faith and a love of God that I am able to keep going. It is with joy that I dream of a reunion with you, how great will be my joy to see you again.

I wish you a Happy Birthday Dad. You are my Dad for all Eternity, thank you for the binding covenants you made with Mom and Heavenly Father to ensure we can be together forever. I love you infinitely and truly.

Your Pook,

Noah’s Baptism Day

A few pictures from Noah’s special day. If you know our Noah you definitely know that this boy is a deep thinking, deep feeling soul. He’s shy very often so he wanted to have a more personal Baptism with less onlookers there, however in the moment he was excited and grateful for all of the support and attention. It worked out perfectly! Noah is actually 9 years old, usually children are Baptized in our church when they turn 8, however we felt that Noah wasn’t quite ready and we wanted him to understand the covenant he was making. It was perfection that we waited, I’m so happy we did because as my children keep teaching me over and over again, they all come to things in their own time and when they do it’s Magic! It just clicks.

Noah was deeply concerned about going under the water, so he was overjoyed when Nathan said that he could wear goggles to be Baptized (whatever made him feel comfortable), and I have to tell you that when he walked into the Baptismal font with goggles (thanks to his Auntie Nicole who went last minute to hunt some down!!) it was the most adorable scene I’ve ever witnessed. Oh I love that boy!

We were so fortunate that Nathan’s side of the family was able to come and be a part of this special day with us! Noah’s Auntie Katie made a special Baptism towel for Noah with “CTR” on it (Choose the Right). He loves it!

Noah was Baptized and Confirmed a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints by his Daddy. When Noah was changing after he was Baptized he said to Nathan several times “I feel so happy!” “I feel so happy to be Baptized!”

A Few Special things on the Program:

Opening Prayer : Conor Muirhead (Noah’s Uncle)

Baptism Talk : Nathan Muirhead

Song: Baptism by the Sister Missionaries (Sister Hale, Sister Nelson, Sister Jones and Sister Evangelista)

Testimonies: Jim Muirhead, Ted Murray, Daria Muirhead, Catherine Muirhead,

Talk on the Holy Ghost : Kim Kara (a special friend in our ward)

Closing Prayer: Nicole Larsen (Noah’s Aunt)

We are so grateful for everyone’s love and support of Noah! Thank you to those that came so far, and also for our family that couldn’t come but sent messages of love for him. Thank you all, it was a special day in the life of our family.

Here’s a link to the LDS church website if you would like to know more about Baptism and our Heavenly Father’s Plan for his children. I can tell you that for me living the Gospel of Jesus Christ brings me such happiness and joy, it’s the foundation of my life and my family. If you’d like to read more about my own Baptism as a child, I have recounted some fond memories on my Mormon.org profile here>>

The Calgary Temple Open House was Incredible

Calgary LDS Temple Last week, our family of 7 had the beautiful opportunity to fly out to Calgary (our old hometown) for the Calgary LDS Temple open house. The experience was powerful and amazing, the building is gorgeous filled with a warm and welcoming feeling. Through the open house, the church opens the temple up to the general public to come through and see each room and learn more about why temples are important to us. On the day that we went, over 8,000 people came through (that’s just one day!), I’ve heard that throughout the entire open house they’ve had 100,000 visitors!

I love that so many of my friends and family were able to attend, both members of our faith and of other faiths too. You can’t help but feel the sacred and special feelings within those walls, its overwhelming. The open house wraps up tonight. I wish we could have gone through again, my children keep asking to go back. This was truly one of our family memories I will never forget.

Want to know more about my faith? Here’s the best place to check it out –>LDS.org