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The Wait Continues…

April 27, 2009

I know that so many of our family and friends are waiting for any news from us regarding the adoption of Little Miss, and when she will finally be home with us full time. To this I must sadly report that I still have no news, no idea of when this might happen. Her case workers are bogged down right now and we haven’t heard a whisper of anything for 5 or so weeks. In the meantime, I’ve heard from her foster mom that she weeps at night looking at our family picture and calls for me.

Originally we thought she would be home with us in February, then March, then we were told in April. Now as May looms near and nary a word is getting through it’s getting tough (understatement) to stay positive. My hope is that they will just call us up and tell us to go get her, but I have no clue what will happen or when.

Thanks to each of you for your support and prayers for Little Miss and our family. Once she is finally home we will have a huge cyber-homecoming party for all of you to attend!! LOL! But for now, I am trying to keep busy and not get too emotional about not having her here. We’ll definitely have a story to tell once this is settled, there’s no question of that. Keep the Faith, I’m leaning on you guys to keep me postive. XO – Daria

So I have a quick moment finally for a little update on our family happenings. On April 10th our Little Miss turned two years old!! We were delighted to discover that she could be with us on her Birthday, her foster parents brought her to our home and she stayed for a fun filled weekend with us.

Never having thrown a girls birthday before, I relished the chance to wrap the house in pink! The only problem was that I only had about an hour to pull off this miracle before she would arrive. Balloons, streamers, pink party hats, pink drinks, delicious cupcakes, and a doorway covered with precious pictures of our little gal greeted her on the way in. She also needed a pink feather boa to wear. It worked out famously. For her gifts she received a little Dora the Explorer push car, and a Dora Ball Pit that required three adults to blowup (not to mention the myriad of clothing in her closet that still is awaiting her to get here full time). Our little family party was so much fun, and the boys were all into decorating with me. I love how excited they get just before she arrives, it’s adorable.

Huge Shoutout to Ebay Auntie Amy from Tote and Tee who sent Little Miss the most ADORABLE “2″ shirt for her bday! Amy you are awesome and I had tears when we opened that package to find the tee you made for my girl. Sniff! It means alot.

For our sweet Little Miss, I just want you to know that we love you so much. And even though we haven’t been with you each day of your life thus far, that will all change very soon. We continue to love and pray for you each and every day, and are so proud of the darling girl you are. Happy Birthday sweetheart! XO – Mommy

We have had so much fun this morning, I snagged the camera wanting to capture the wildness of her crazy morning hair. Then something magic happened and I got some adorable shots of her eyes and expressions. We had a four day visit with her this weekend, she heads back to her Foster parents tonight. I’m dreading letting her go.

I have frequented several amazing adoption blogs over the years. I always admired the courage and strength it must have taken those awaiting parents until their precious child was finally in their arms for good. Now I am experiencing this first hand, and I must admit how much more I admire all those who do this, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced bar none. To know our daughter and spend time with her, but also have to say goodbye to her and hand her back to her foster family so often, well it sucks! (there is no pretty way of saying it)

I can’t describe the joy I feel when she is with us, it’s like our family is complete and safe and together. And just as I start to relax into the beauty of having my children all around, well time is up and we’re saying goodbye again. I don’t know how many more goodbyes I have in me, it just kills me to continuously walk away when all I want is to scoop her up and have her home with us forever. I worry that Little Miss will begin to see us as inconsistent, with the comings and goings, and no end in sight as yet. I know that she loves us, but I don’t want to feel like a glorified babysitter who drops in and out of eyesight. I want to be Mommy, who she can count on and who will be her safe haven. (I’m crying as I write this tonight).

I guess I never realized how tough this would be, but now I know. I can only imagine the immense joy we will feel when the judge finally says “yes, she’s yours!”. I am holding that image in my mind because all the waiting and little communication from case workers is unbearable.

Thank you so much to everyone who has commented, sent emails, called, consoled and prayed for us. I’m in your debt, your encouragement gives me strength each day and hope that soon we’ll get the call that will change our world.

No News!

March 9, 2009

Yes that’s right, no news yet on our impending court date for the adoption of Little Miss. I’m beginning to feel very insignificant in the eyes of the system, and am worrying to the point of needing Botox injections to smooth that forehead again. Sigh.

For anyone who’s considering the adoption process, just be warned…it’s SO not for sissies. I can hardly believe the range of emotions, and comings and goings that we have been through in this journey. It’s coming up on a YEAR since we first met our daughter and she’s not with us yet. Gut Wrenching to know her and love her, but not have her at home with our family. I’m missing her Babyhood. I admitted to Liz my SIL today that it’s to the point now, where I’m so anxious about it all that I just need to know if there’s any chance it won’t happen. I’m subconsciously starting to feel my heart going into self-protect mode, because we haven’t received any reply or word in weeks.

If anyone has gone through this, please throw me a bone here. How did you get through without starting to feel some despair?

The bright spot I’m clinging to, is talking with Little Miss on the phone and hearing her call me “Mom-ME”! There is no better medicine than hearing her darling voice so happy to talk to me.

The Quilt

March 4, 2009

I haven’t posted about it yet, but I’m so excited I can hardly stand it! My talented sister-in-law Liz is creating the most amazing original quilt design for our Little Miss. Tomorrow she is revealing pictures of the quilt top on her blog Pigtails and Snails, so if you want to pop by to “ooohhhhh and ahhhhhh” at her talents please do so.

I can’t wait to hear what you all think. I commissioned her to do this for Little Misses room, but gave her Full Creative Control once I purchased the Tanya Whelan Fabrics I wanted. I’m just so thrilled and can’t wait to see what she has come up with for my little girl. While we are waiting for the post to go up, I figure I have time to rave about Liz. She designed a quilt for Patty Young last fall at Quilt Market that was literally a show stopper! You can view that past design here at LizzyAnne.com, and you can even order it there too. I’m sure you’ll agree that there are Big Things on the horizon for Liz, with talent like that she’s sure to be the next Martha Stewart (but she’s way cuter!).

A few moments to myself

March 1, 2009

It’s Sunday morning, and the light is streaming in our bedroom window. Right now I can hear the sounds of happy children playing, and not just our 4 busy boy sounds…but also the sound of sweet Little Miss who is here for her second sleepover weekend. The kids are all topped up with delicious pancakes and are now laughing and sharing toys. I can’t believe how lucky we are!

Her first sleepover was on Valentine’s Day, and dare I say that honestly it could not have gone better. She was so delightful and pleased as punch to be here with us. She took right to her Big Girl Bed with no difficulty whatsoever. I just couldn’t believe that she had no transition issues of changing to a double bed from her usual crib. SWEET! We of course were loving the chance to have her at home to ourselves, it was so adorable seeing her enjoy the boys and she and Noah even had a tea party together. At church on Sunday, Little Miss and Noah naturally just took each other’s hand when they were walking down the hallway together. It melted my heart so much, especially since I have worried a bit about how those two would get along and share everything.

Now flashforward to this weekend, she’s here for two nights this time. It’s been pretty much a dream as well. I can’t complain at all, she is just a funny little girl. Sensitive, full of laughter, and totally a dancing machine! If any music is playing she gets right up and starts to move. Yesterday she was a bit more picky about food, and had one tender moment of tears when she didn’t want to eat something. But that’s the only tears I’ve seen with her in our visits thus far. Little Miss is just delightful most of the time. She has graduated this weekend from calling me “Ma Ma!” to “Mom ME!!” which I love hearing. She totally knows how to use it too, because she did it at Walmart yesterday in the toy section followed by the cutest “Please” you’re ever heard. LOL!! Needless to say she is now the proud new owner of a little baby doll. I caved, but it was worth it! :)

It’s getting so tough saying goodbye to her at the end of our overnight visits. I wish that she could just stay and adjust full time. But we’re getting closer and closer to that now. Our home assessment is complete and went so well. I had a rush of joy fill my heart when that part of the process was finally done, I just knew that we had done everything we could on our end of things and now it’s all up to the courts and God as to how quickly this all moves. I’m hoping that my constant prayers will usher in an instant court date, but I know that things happen for a reason and on the Lord’s time and I’m ok with that. As much as I wish I could just snap my fingers and make it happen on my own.

For now I am just indulging in the joy of feeling that all of my children are safe, happy and under the same roof. In a few hours her foster parents will be here to wisk my babygirl away again, and I won’t see her face for another week or so. But right now she is cuddled up next to me while I type, and brushing her little hand against my arm. Her hair is all wild and crazy, and it feels like real life. It’s a good morning.

Sleeping Beauty

February 9, 2009

Little Miss and I piled into the van with her Auntie Liz this weekend and took off to the vintage antique store. What an amazing place they have up there, it made me quite green with envy that she has such a great resource for unique finds to close to her home. We discovered a precious vintage ironing board for Little Misses room, it’s her size with green legs. A total FIND! I’m thinking of putting little picture frames on it with faces she loves. It will definitely be a welcome addition to her room. Little Miss was so happy to be on an outing with Mommy and Auntie Liz, (she will try to say “Liz” but it comes out more “ZZZZZiiizzzzz”).

As we pulled up back at Liz’s house, this was the view we saw. Just pure beauty all rosy and asleep. I of course didn’t let her sleep that way for long, she was so tired and floppy. LOL!!

On a happy note, I am really feeling like her Mommy! Everything with our bonding has been so beautiful and I’m sure we’ll have bumps in the coming weeks and months once she is transitioning over to our home, but for now its so lovely to spend this time with her and see her love for us growing with each visit. When we dropped her back though yesterday she had a very hard time letting us go, she did her normal kisses at the window but when Nathan and I started down the steps to leave her face changed and she screamed and kicked and cried. It took all my will power not to go back in there and scoop her up, but I knew that if I did it would escalate the goodbye later. So I stuffed all my motherly feelings deep inside my throat and walked to the car (crying of course inside). We are trying to keep our goodbyes fun and light with her, but she’s a smart little cookie and has put it all together now. At this point we’re hoping that they will move things along quickly for her sake, we don’t want her to be confused and upset all of the time. So say a little prayer for Little Miss, that she’ll be with her family soon – we’re ready and waiting with open arms!

I have more to tell about our weekend, but I’m rushing out right now. Back with more later…Tater!

Baby Girl’s Closet

February 3, 2009

I’ve been “working on” Little Misses Closet quite a bit as you can see. I still need a second bar installed below, because we NEED that extra hanging space. Gotta have room for all the cute, frilly, gorgeousness that she’ll soon be sportin’ around town. LOL!

Most of her wardrobe is currently Gymboree, with splashes of boutique customs I’ve picked up for her. I can’t wait to have her home and get proper measurements so I can buy from the indie designers I’ve been watching all of these years!

Thankfully the girl will have a whole host of shoes to welcome her home as well. She’s made it known that she’s a “shoe girl”, and will drop down to the floor at the hint of a new pair so she can instantly put them on. She is currently toddler size 7, but I’m thinking I’ll need to start snagging her the next size up because we have alot alot alot of 7’s kicking around now. She’s got to get here before she outgrows her wardrobe! Hurry home Little Miss.

So Good News

January 29, 2009

Things are still moving along! Yay!! Little Miss’s Case Worker came down last night for a visit. He poked around our house for about 5 minutes, then we took off for dinner to discuss how the next few weeks will go.

We still have a Home Assessment lady coming to do a full report on our house, and meet with us. He thought we should hear from her ASAP. She’s the key to a more definite “Gotcha Date”. So now I am praying that she will call and we can get those reports rolling fast, we could be in court before you know it. I’m looking at her pictures tonight and crying, I just miss her so much. It’s so hard to wait for the weekends to get away and go visit her. I feel like I’m climbing the walls tonight, I just want to be there to read her a story, and do some fun boogie down moves with our little dancing girl. She LOVES to dance, once she’s home I’ll have to post a little video of her crazy awesome moves!

The boys are asking me 20 times a day when their sister is coming home. We’re all antsy and wishing it was right now. Seriously, if she’s not home soon I may get an ulcer. LOL!!