This past week was one of the most gut-wrenching of my life. The time I realized that I would not be carrying our baby to term, that in fact I was miscarrying. The shock and sadness that you feel in situations like this is deep and raw. I can’t say that I’m handling it in any great way, I’m just dealing with it the only way I can – moment by moment.

This has meant asking my friends and family to hold off on phone calls. I feel a huge need to self protect, and answering questions and hearing sympathy is just not something I’m able to handle in the least. I know that at some point I may want to talk about it, but all I know is that I don’t right now. It’s enough to know that people care and are there for me, I know this already. I feel the support of family and friends, even without the words and that’s a comfort to me. I know that I am loved.

I want to thank many of you for being excited with me at the possibility. Your instant support and excitement was so appreciated by me. Bottom-line I know that I will be ok, and that there is a reason why things like this happen. I have faith that God is watching out for me, he knows my heart. I feel the mercies of a loving father in heaven, and feel richly blessed with the children I have already who are healthy, happy and beautiful. I know I am fortunate and feel smiled upon by heaven in many many ways.

So in a few days, I will gather my humor, and positivity together and go about being a good mommy to my four boys. I know that it’s only through service to others that you can find true joy and happiness. I plan on using service for others to heal my heart. That’s my plan to get through.

Thank you again for your love and concern both for me and my entire family. It’s been a crazy, upsetting time but I am thankful to know there are so many out there praying for me and wishing me well. Thank you!

Hi everyone,
Thank you for your support through the past few weeks of my pregnancy. Unfortunately I have miscarried and I’m truly devastated. This is not the first time, but definitely the most painful both physically and emotionally. Please bear with me as I’ll be away for a few days, I’m not taking calls while I’m going through this. I may be going in for surgery today or tomorrow, just waiting to hear.

Your love and prayers are much appreciated. I thank you for all you have done to support me. Please feel free to pass this information along, as I won’t be able to work on Boutique Cafe this week.

Love,
Daria