It occurred to me the other day when I was driving along in the van. I suddenly jolted, my tears smeared my cheeks as I realized something that I honestly hadn’t recognized before. I was living my dream life, the one that I held a picture of in my head around 12 years ago. I recall the circumstances I was in back then, on my own with a young little baby boy and trying to make ends meet. I was so lost in the world around me, not knowing where I was going or having any course ahead. I remember the fear in my heart about raising my son, and about whether I’d ever find the love my heart so wanted to find. My guard was up and my spirit was down, I searched in the wrong places for things and people to fill the holes in my life.

Things changed, I changed and my dreams became clear again.

And as I was driving the other day, it hit me. The dreams that I had, that I visualized in my head were mine now. The husband, the children, the happiness, the home, the relationships, the fulfillment of career, the peace and forgiveness, the possibility. It was mine to hold and ponder. Can I express my gratitude? words cannot. Only the prayers in my heart now of thanks can match what I feel knowing that those dreams are mine and I can now keep dreaming.

My Bread maker, warm care bear socks, Daria’s Day Off (each Thursday), a dentist in the family, a hot dentist in my house, “Somewhere Over The Rainbow” by Katherine McPhee, the thrill of interviewing new people on Boutique Cafe, Noah expanding his knowledge of “H” words, Brigs looking like a big boy before my eyes, Joshy when he’s in his tender mood, Joshy’s kisses, Dylan’s pride in trying new things, Dylan when he laughs, that Bjorn & Nicole made up a nickname just for me, Katie’s Valentine cookies, Conor’s face when he looks at Katie, Brett is in the same city as me again, Courtnee looking gorgeous and happy, my Mom’s homemade banana bread on a cold day, Dad’s service in the church, Being in love, my in-laws having Ashley and Luke in their home each week, Nathan taking courses to further his knowledge (minus the Niagra Falls without me part), that Liz got pregnant so my belly wouldn’t poke out the farthest , Mike and Justin in white, my psychic twin, Andrew’s “Auntie Daria” hugs, Freyja in ponytails and bracelets, Evan and Freyja playing together, Vienna looking like a little girl more than a baby now, Cora’s sweet angelic face, my duvet, Moroni chapter 10, leather couches instead of cloth, THE SECRET on dvd, being a thirty-something mom of 4 – wink, a warm safe home to live in, family surrounding me, days when I feel healthy, nights when I get 6 hours of sleep or more, tucking my boys in at night, a gorgeous red purse I’m dying to use, friends who support me, the “Theory” of Maja-cize, Boutique fashions and the stay-at-home moms who make them, technology for blogging, and people who leave comments.

I was so excited to hear the subject of Oprah’s show yesterday. She had a guest panel of experts from the movie THE SECRET on her show. I own this DVD and it was given to me a few months ago from my parents. I have to admit that this is life changing stuff. The Law of Attraction is so simple and yet so powerful. I think you should check this out!