Dear Brigham,
You’re definitely a classic two year old boy. Bright and fun with alot of attitude. You are so headstrong that sometimes I wish with all my might that you would grow out of this stage quickly so that I can reason with you. I’ve tried reason and it’s a concept you either just don’t grasp yet, or don’t care too. In any case sometimes Mommy goes insane worrying about you and hoping that the attitude that you possess will be a positive strength to you as you get bigger and not hold you back at all. USE IT FOR GOOD SON :)
I’ve spent so many exhausted nights with tears streaming down my face as I wonder how I can be a better Mom to you. I feel frustrated to the point of tears that you constantly need to be under my feet, attached to my legs or lying on top of me in order to be content. I love so many things about you and your sweet personality, you can be so loving and charming Brigs - but everyone knows not to tick you off buddy. Even at two you can invoke FEAR into the hearts of those around you that try to get between you and any goal that you have in mind. Yes, you are that head strong, determined - you have a one track mind at this point and nobody can dare deter you from your objectives. Is it funny? Yes, I admit that sometimes your Daddy and I have to laugh because your will is so strong but sometimes it’s not funny at all and that is usually when one of us is trying to put you to bed at night. My own will seems so weak compared to yours - or maybe it’s just that I adore you so much that I weaken at the sight of those baby blue eyes.
As I tucked you in tonight and rocked you to sleep I felt frustrated, you fought me and I kept singing to you and held you close. Finally you relaxed in my arms and drifted. I looked at your beautiful little boy face, those sweet kissy lips, your golden hair and sweet nose. The way that you sweetly snore and twist my hair around your fingers as an alert if I try to put you down. In that moment tonight I couldn’t believe that I had been wishing for this stage to pass, you are still my baby. A lovely, innocent baby boy and I adore you Brigs - attitude and all. I can see so much promise in you, so much love and I don’t think anything in life will hold you back from getting what you desire. I want to hold you for as long as you will allow me to before you start pushing me away for the other things of the world. Soon things will open up for you and I’ll no longer be your center, I’ll always be here but it won’t be the same as you branch out and learn more and more. I know that you need me right now, and tonight I really realize what an HONOR that is. I love being your Mommy and want you to grow and develop beautifully in every-way. I want you to have love and respect and courage and yes even that crazy determination that you already have in spades. I know now that I really need to enjoy every moment that I can of your Babyhood, it’s passing by like a blink already. Thank you for being my beautiful blue eyed boy.
love,
Mommy