OK, I’m not afraid to admit to everyone that I have HORRIBLE pregnancies. I see so many women that breeze thorugh and have no major complaints and I just can’t relate. I seem to be destined to battle constant throwing up, leg cramps that wake me in the middle of the night in agony, swollen ankles, crying at the drop of a hat, contractions a month in advance of my due date (and they are regular and painful too!), not to mention my anemia which causes me to blackout, iron injections twice a week to get my blood pressure up, and the sharp shooting pains I have been experincing in my lower abdomen.

I feel like a total wreck these days and the worst is when someone calls me up and asks that dreaded question “So how are you doing?” I just don’t know what to say. I find myself evaluating whether I should lie to them sugar coat it and say “GREAT!!!” or like I told my friend Maja the other day “Girl, I’m miserable! So how are you doing??”. I seem to at least get a laugh with the second one but I don’t like feeling like a negative person at all. Please don’t get me wrong, I’m so excited to meet this new little person and welcome him to our family. I LOVE BABIES! I just wish I didn’t have to have 4 pregnancies full of torture to get my kids here.

I swear people think I’m insane to be having a new baby right now but I’ve always wanted to have alot of kids. I adore my crazy, energetic children! Anyway, I guess I just needed to vent about these past several months of hospital stays and bedrest with those big old fat feet up on pillows because I know that many women experince dream pregnancies. I’m just not one of them. I hope that through all of it at least I value my children even more because it takes so much out of me to get them here into the world.

Anyway, here’s to the next few weeks of pregnancy, I hope they’ll pass by without too much ruckus but I’m not sure because I’m having consistant 12 minutes apart contractions today so maybe we can get a move on and meet this baby a bit early. GULP!! LOL!