I was so excited this morning to start Calendaring on my NEW More Time Mom’s Calendar (the best Calendar on the market in my opinion). As I started placing all the Birthdays and upcoming events for this new year I stopped to think about each one of these incredbile family members and friends who have touched my life. I felt so blessed to have so much family and dear friends around me.
Then I came to my sister’s Birthday in February and my heart sank when I realized that my Grandmother (they shared a b-day) would not be having another Birthday as she passed away this year. I wasn’t able to attend her funeral due to my health in this pregnancy and in many ways I haven’t felt like she has even left us – when there’s no real closure you can kind of convince yourself that everything’s normal and that Grandma is still here. I keep telling myself that I need to go and visit her then I suddenly realize that she’s gone.It hurts that I didn’t really get a chance to say goodbye to this incredible woman who loved me from the time I was born, raised my wonderful mother and sent me Birthday cards every year with $5.00 and a note saying “Don’t eat too much cake”. I loved my Grandmother and I fondly remember her sending our family a Pre-Christmas box which was filled with all kinds of treasures she had collected throughout the previous year. Old necklaces and bracelets, chocolates, cake mixes, wallets, cereal, gloves…you name it and it was in there. It was the most exciting tradition that my brother and sister and I looked forward to growing up. As we’ve gotten older and Grandma’s health started to decline the boxes stopped coming at Christmas and somehow it just isn’t the same anymore. It’s difficult to know that all of my Grandparents have passed away now and then you start thinking of what it would be like to say goodbye to your own parents – gulp. I hope and pray that I have many, many more years with my own parents and Nathan’s parents – we are just so blessed to have these people in our lives who love us and our children so much. It makes me want to treasure every moment more and more as I get older and realize how things can change so quickly.
So tell somebody in your family that you love them today, I will too!